De ieri si pana azi

Sunt cele mai importante locuri ,:]..pentru mine .

Imi bag pula in ea viata

Si e al meu

Si mereu trebuie sa-mi se ia.De ce? Ganduri,idei,sentimente sunt ale mele.Niciodată nu am înţeles de ce trebuie sa intervină uitare.Cui i-ar trebui nişte ganduri arse ,nefolositoare ,uneori ,chiar banele,nimeni nu are nevoie ,nimeni nu le vrea.Toate gandurile acelea puierile sunt ale mele,create de mintea mea bolnavă si este doar o persoana care le vrea..si acea persoana sunt eu.Ale mele sunt toate,si nu vreau sa le dau nici acum ,nici peste o mie de ani.





Mai pe româneşte:Nu copia nimic din ce scriu aici !...Ca de asta ti-a dat Domnul creier sa-l foloseşti ,chiar dacă este cat o aluna :)

Again and again and again ...again

M-am saturat de aceeaşi privire pe fereastră în orele e matematica,istorie,franceză, engleza ,romană(atunci cand gasesc inspiratie )geografie,biologie,civică,muzica....
Mereu e la fel, ştiu ca peste un an si jumătate se va schimba si de abia aştept ...Peisajul asta posac mă surprinde si cand sunt tristă si cand sunt fericită ,si cand am zambet tampit pe moacă ,absolut mereu.Si m-am saturat sa mă cunoască arat de bine ,sa mă facă sa plang atunci cand imi vine...vreau ceva nou.Sufletul si mintea bolnavă vrea sa evadeze si sa zboară pentru ca imaginea aceea îmi mananca viaţa.

Through the eyes of another

Someday, maybe not too special, when the sky was breaking and the sun wanted to enter our world that little girl was born with violet eyes. But his parents not wanted her, because it was very poor, so they gave she to an orphanage.A cruel fate for a child so gentle, beautiful and especially.Her name was Lilith.
In time this being brought up, reached the age of fourteen when you see something that was completely new for her. He was not talkative, but on the contrary, very quiet, liked people, loves life, liked everything beautiful in the world, although not be the best fate... When she looked in your eyes you felt that manipulates and take control.She could saw through your eyes, she looked directly into the soul, but she was conscious, although it had a terrible power in the hands of a kid with great soul and his intentions were always good..
Although she had power from birth, she realized at the age of sixteen years, when he looked into the eyes of a boy that she liked, and saw that for him,in him soul ,she was just a simple girl...Lilith became angry ... and wanted to make noticed by that guy,but her intentions turned by vanity and popularity.Therefore Lilith's eyes become stinging and when she looked in your eyes,you felt like burned.
When Lilith looked again in the eyes of that boy, was much worse than the first time, the boy was scared, terrified ... and she saw in him soul again, him soul take fire. When the girl was believed that the conquered, and Lilith took the look,boy was terrified and took him book and ran.
She felt terrible, thought that the power she had always a help,but not only that ... because it started to hurt all around her.After the first step wrong, has condemned parents, although they were not fault, she wanted to take revenge for all those who have not given a chance, Lilith turned into a monster, because her eyes hurt, all children in the orphanage they was fear of she, but when her power out of control, was taken from her, because she was a messenger who can saw the goodness of the earth, but she was just a kid who does not understand what is responsible..
After what was a normal women, was depressed, Lilith does not understand why ... now was simple girl, with anything special. She asked questions for years in a row, because she could not do anything and not have who to support. By the time she crosses the street ... and a light came down from sky, she touch for a moment that light... and others felt pain, fear and hatred all around, but still not understood why now is a normal person , when his soul come again earth, saw the light which killed her.
She was flat on the street, and were around her :the ambulance and police, trying to saw why she died suddenly. The mystery ended: heart attack, although it wasn't at all.She was now a spirit who saw, hear and felt everything going on around her, but could not do anything...when he realized that would be buried,she screamed :
-Why?
A voice replied:
-You had one but only you had eyes of gold, which you tame others, but your eyes were turned in some bad, who hurt others, so you was taken power. And what is worse, could not pass street death, you don't understood nothing .
At that moment she understood, and then she saw nothing, and when they look inside her.... everything back to normal, she passed the street, and not dead, and his eyes returned to normal. After that, she always said better you know your faults ... and if not do the first time, you must have the courage to cross the street dead.

Dezamagirea .

Azi am făcut cunoştinţa cu adevărat ,cu ceea ce se numeşte dezamăgire totala ,a mea si a celor din jur ...si vreau sa descriu în cateva cuvinte tot ce simt ,e greu,foarte greu .
Plang înăuntrul meu ,care da pe afara ,ochii mei sunt instrumente nefolositoare acum ,pentru ca e prea greu sa distingi chipuri/culori printre atatea lacrimi vărsate după ....Mintea o ia razna ,vrea sa zboare ,iar diavolii din mine vor sa pună stapanire pe corp,dar nu îi las ,voi lupta .Pentru ce?Pentru nimic ,nu am nici un motiv încă ,si sper sa îl găsesc candva ,dar pană atunci mintea si trupul vor face ce vor ele ,nu mai sunt în stare sa gandesc acum,dezamăgirea e atat de mare încat a pătruns în fiecare colţişor al sufletului,care se frange ,încetul cu încetul,cat mai dureros,nu vreau sa-mi vad privire,nici pe a celorlalti,ştiu ca mă va răni.
Imi este greu ,am crezut in ceva ce nu se va adeveri niciodată.Unde mi-a fost capul?Erau atat de multe voci si priviri împotriva mea ,era clar ce va urma,si aceea era doar dezamăgirea . Grea e speranta ,cand nu poţi crede-n ea ,grea e încrederea cand toti sunt împotriva ta,grea e conştiinţa cand nu o mai poţi avea .Lumea e grea .